So it's been awhile since I've made a journal but I've finally reached the day where I can say this is step one on the road to recovery. I'm officially only dealing with one or two people now that bring me down as opposed to the eight-ten I had to prior on a daily basis. I feel almost liberated from emotional bindings caused by toxic friendships and feeling chained to people who genuinely couldn't give a damn about my presence. I have new friends and a new path in life and I'm starting to feel so much better. Better yet, I feel as if these new friends actually want me as an addition and not just an outsider looking in.
I've been emotionally abused, pushed around, walked all over, accused of things I have not done, had twisted truths used against me and been forced to accept them as reality, forced into silence against my will, been told who I am and what I have to do by people who only cared for assumptions rather than getting to know a person, had salt rubbed in old wounds, and that's just a few of the things I've experienced in such a short amount of time.
Now, I'm finally free and I feel home again. I'm just going to keep doing what I've always done best; be myself. For those who keep saying "what about yourself?" when I say making people smile is what makes me truly happy I've only got one thing to say to you: Have you ever heard of the saying kindness is its own reward?